As I write I question myself if this is necessary, who are the ones who are going to raise eyebrows, what jobs will I be missing in the future. This might upset some people and I’m sure to be hearing anytime soon that maybe I could have been more discrete. Oh fuck that.
I have been pretty much a tomboy for all my childhood playing football, videogames, wanting to play electric guitar, I suppose due to my elder brother, so I was always comfortable around boys and thought many times that girls were boring. It didn’t help growing up in a male chauvinist religious community – something I only came to realise many years later. Ask me about the subject 10 years ago and I would say discrimination is on one’s mind. And possibly that “my male peers treat me as if I was one of them”. Blue is for boys, pink is for girls is so rooted in our culture in many ways that it’s difficult to see. I want to believe that the occurrences described here are of an issue of ignorance and not of maleficence. But things need to change and girls need to understand the forms of discrimination and guys need to think twice about a lot of stuff they say; and some women too, by the way.
I attended a music production BA and we were 3 girls and about 15 guys in the class. Later on I had to stop to work full-time but I enrolled again one year later where I was the only girl and 18 or 19 guys. I had good colleagues, I was friends with some. In both periods, however, sexual jokes were flying the classroom every 15 minutes or so. I didn’t really understand the problem then, but I remember that one of the girls showed herself really disgusted on one particular guy who was particularly … verbally explicit… and she became a serious victim of name calling and adult bullying. The girls in the program were objectified on a single basis. Oh, how glorious it was to have some girls attending but only if they were treated with respect. Same for the only female teacher: her sexual life was discussed almost everyday among students and of course that was also attributed to her position as a teacher. I suppose all her knowledge and completed academic degrees didn’t mean a thing. There was a girl from another class who was very pretty but (or “and”) the times I heard she was dumb and stupid really blurred any other comment. Last time I checked she was rocking at her sound job.
I felt some condescendence once in a while from teachers, and one once actually put forward a way to embarrass me in front of the whole class by asking me something he was apparently sure I didn’t know the answer. Very pedagogic, right?
Now a disclaimer & an opinion: a girl does not have to be a good student to be respected. I was not a good student. I lacked motivation and was very lost with what I really wanted (I also had a very shitty life situation). Having sympathetic grades to pass the courses does not help. But support from the school system – teachers and colleagues – and being open to go an extra mile to help out in one momentary unpolished skill could help out a lot, in particular those girls who are dropping out school so quickly, due to the lack of a working support system.
professional life… or… “so, where are you studying?”
What follows is a series of real-life tales I have lived mostly in the latest 4 years of my professional life. Perhaps all of them are not related with my gender, with my looks, with my age. But maybe they are.
Many of the places / companies I provide work for a period of time (could be one day or months) seem to be very happy to have a girl in the premises. I often hear how cool it is, there should be more, etc.. I agree. I don’t see that many and think it’s great to encourage more of us to have visibility.
one of these companies I started on asked for my rate. I even asked for the opinion of an experience colleague and presented a very average price. They compared my fee to the other girl’s fee that was also a freelance to be able to negotiate a lower price.
on one job as a production sound mixer I asked the line producer to contact the equipment’s rental company to replace one of the microphones that has been damaged the day before by being exposed to humidity for too long. This was even after I brought it home and did tests to see what were the damaged parts. He later asked my male assistant what happened to the microphone.
on the same project, one of the props guys was responsible for mounting a stand for a street DJ performance thing. In front of me he asked my male assistant what cables he would need.
as production sound mixer again, one Sennheiser on my kit died. Then it went on for a few minutes and went totally off again. Once more, I checked every component on the chain I could and once I returned to the office I communicated by email, with a post-it, with a phone text to the responsible, detailing everything that happened. They never came back to me, but I found out later that they were saying I forgot to turn the phantom power on.
on a similar job, I spent over two months hearing from a male DOP things like: I should instead be working in the studio, that there is no need to record that because they will add it in post, that once he had a stereo microphone on his camera which had such great sound that it did the job, that I needed to hurry up, that there was no time to take atmos, that they won’t use the sound, that I needed to get used to it, that he would use the camera microphone, that I needed to do my best because apparently informing beforehand that recording by a shore is very noisy and suggesting an alternative is not my best, if I placed the microphones well, why was I not using this microphone but the other, that the producer needed to agree that it was too noisy to take dialogue in the middle of a street square with operating construction machines all around and a big water fountain, that by tradition I needed to carry his part of the gear. Later, I sadly confessed this to a colleague who told me “sounds like he’s mansplaining you”. I never heard about the term. I read about it and was later criticised about defending the term and the existence of the treatment. “I shouldn’t be angry about it”.
i was hired for location sound again because they want to bring women in the industry. They didn’t want to pay the preparation day or all the hours on the schedule. They said there was no more budget. They said I couldn’t earn more than the DOP. They said I charging a lot. All were lies and they didn’t re-hire me despite the directors’ will to do so.
they hired me but the hired boys were doing the fun parts of the job
he asked me what I did for a living (I was working and assembling my kit in front of him)
he asked me if I was going to enrol a school program (I was 28)
they referred to me as “him” and “sound guy”
they indicated me for a non-paid student project,
they indicated me for a junior-entry job
they gave me advice on how to start a career (I was in for over 5 years)
he said women unquestionably do the best work but he didn’t really let any woman in
he approached me talking about saving money and said he wanted to replace his former (“whining”) female dialogue editor by me
he wanted me to work for free to prove my worth
So, your thoughts? Men and women? What can be done?
A warm hug to all women who have to deal with this anytime in their lives!